Gratitude Day 17: energy

Prompt:  Write about your energy

*this has been modified from the original prompt*

Let's talk about about

Energy.

I would like to say that I've worked on myself to the point that I am becoming more self aware of what type of

Energy.

I am bringing into the room. One of the earliest quotes I can remember about

Energy

is
Be responsible for the energy that you bring into the room
— Brene Brown
And for a while I really was like ok that makes sense. But I never really thought about what that actually means. Devonte has told me plenty of times that he's big on

Energy.

He's gotten to the point that he knows when my

Energy

has changed, even he's not next to me. And I admit even I knew when my

Energy

was changing or not the best. But I just really never cared. I was always Like this is just how I feel.

Then just recently I heard someone talking about

Energy

again. It was actually on one of my favorite podcasts;

Black Girl Podcast

Epsiode 39: Ari.

(it's down below if you so choose you want to check it out)

One of the girls was talking about how she was cognizant of her

Energy

and that she didn't want to bring her negative

Energy

into other people's lives and that was the reason she had stepped back from their group.

And call me superstitous but things usually come in threes and this was the third thing that I have heard about

Energy.

So. I decided to reflect. There have been plenty of times where my

Energy

Is just

COMPLETELY

off. And without hesistation I brought that into someone else's world. I dumped off my negativity, anger, annoyance, frustration onto someone else without asking first. And you have to realize how toxic that can become.

I started to wonder how many times has my

Energy

created a situation that escalated all because I didn't take the time to check my

Energy?

How many times have pushed people away because my

Energy

wasn't what it needed to be?

So now I'm challenging myself to be more aware of my

Energy.

To be more cognizant of what my current

Energy

is. I'm challenging myself to take a step back when I know that the

Energy

I am about to bring is way out of align with the other perons. I'm challenging myself to be more responsible with the

Energy

that I bring into the room.

 

The part in reference to this post starts at 36:11 if you would like to fast forward